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10 Poems in 20 Minutes (Day Ninety-Seven)

Oh man, guys, I tried to write some love poems today. I thought, hey I’ve never written love poems, I should try, these are the results, well, you’ll see.

I Wrote 10 Poems in 20 Minutes
Day 97

Poem 1:
I will love you till the end of time
And my bones will go on loving you
You are in my bones now
For all the love you’ve given me.
And at this point in her lovely speech,
The scientist comes in,
Usually I can suppress him when I’m talking flowers, and hearts, and souls
But this time,
Not so much.
What do you mean your bones will love me?
Those are inanimate objects and totally gross now that you’re dead,
And what if you die first,
Are you going melt the flesh off the bones and send them to me?
Here take these with you to carry around,
That way I can love you from the grave.
And how am I in your bones?
What you didn’t get enough calcium as a child
And now you’re stealing mine?
Where’s your big damn needle to draw out some marrow,
Huh?
Go ahead take it, take my bones and put them in yours
I hope you get blood positioning from me.

Poem 2:
I want him to tell me,
It is only you I’ve loved
I have loved you as long as I’ve known you
You’re perfect the way you are.
But really, I mean,
Even if you convince me to marry you,
Somehow,
I guess your juggling is kinda cool,
We’ll just end up getting a divorce
And I’ve seen so many divorces,
Oh my god,
They never end well,
And what like half of all marriages end that way now
Jesus
So before I move in with you, because I’m not sure what else
To do with this life and empty hands,
I’m putting my name in all my book covers
So that you can have my flowers, and soul, and chocolates
But you’re not getting my damn nice copy of the collected works of W.H. Auden.

Poem 3:
I’m so tired of this shit.
Really, so very,
To borrow the new common phrase,
I can’t even
I’m glad that you’re upset I really am
For once, you’re upset and I don’t care
I really don’t
I’ve done nothing wrong
You
You alone made you all this upset.
It wasn’t me.
You imagined this whole scenario
Then didn’t even bother to tell me you’re upset.
You can deal with it yourself
I’m going to get some over priced hot chocolate
Just to get out of this damn house.

Poem 4:
That first boy I dated,
You know what he said
Oh man, this was so funny
He said, I like the way you say something is funny
Instead of laughing.
I just looked at him
As he was inching closer to me,
And I thought, god this guy is fucking weird.
I was only saying that’s funny, because I wanted to acknowledge
You made a joke
But not actually laugh.

Poem 5:
I love you as a rose loves a thorn
I find you necessary for my survival
And protection from big bad things that would eat me
But most of the time you’re just
Annoying.

Poem 6:
Oh, could this be love?
I think it might have finally arrived
I waited and waited
I listened to that 60s song about not hurrying love
And waiting
Or whatever
And finally something is stirring my heart
No wait, I think that’s just the burrito I got for dinner
Way too much hot sauce
Like I thought maybe I was overdoing at the time
But man does it kill now
My heart, my heart.
Someone help me.

Poem 7:
Oh man, so much, I’ve waited for you to notice me
To single me out
Find a reason to be with me,
Just me,
But now I’m pretty sure,
Well, wait, no, maybe,
Yeah no, very sure,
That you think I’m a nuisance.
That’s ok, at least you know I’m alive,
And I got to have a whole love affair
All in my mind,
It was so great,
You were so nice,
Did you know you were there?
No?
Well you were, and I loved you so much,
It was almost like you were real.

Poem 8:
I find myself staring at you
When no else is around
Just to see what you’ll do next
And I don’t realize I’m staring.
A novel I read once,
Or maybe it was the cover of a magazine at the grocery store,
Said that being drawn into his eyes means that you’re starting to fall,
Really, though, that’s a bit much,
I just find your lazy eye fascinating.

Poem 9:
You told me, once,
I’m so ugly
And I think you were waiting for me to contradict you
To say, no I think you’re handsome
And so strong, and this gesture would be accompanied by a shoulder stroke
Or something out of a Arthurian tale,
But instead, I just nodded,
It’s true, you’re pretty ugly,
But I don’t mind,
I don’t prefer handsome or ugly guys.

Poem 10:
I can’t make a decision without wondering what you’d say
I have to wait on all my big purchases to ask you first,
My love, my heart,
Oh my love, what do you think about this brand of butter?
Or should I go for the organic?
I really want to respect the cows out there.
My dear, should I take 11th street or Lake Drive to get there faster?
Really, it’s like I can’t make a decision myself, almost like
I’ve been waiting my whole life to never have to make a decision again.

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10 Poems in 20 Minutes (Day Ninety-Six)

Posting very late into the night again. Eee. Please, enjoy my poems.

I Wrote 10 Poems in 20 Minutes (12:55)
Day 96

Poem 1:
My dog cried because he knew there was something he
Was supposed to do. And he couldn’t.
He couldn’t make it up the stairs,
To where he sleep, rests.
So he stood at the bottom and cried.
And I couldn’t help.
So I listened and he cried and circled.

Poem 2:
She arrived home from her trip.
A winded adventure in her eyes.
She said sit with me
So I can tell you all about it.
And I’m obliged to her house,
So I did.
And said nothing,
While she gave me her travels in pieces and bits.
And I listened and longed for the day
I could say, no,
I won’t hear this any longer.

Poem 3:
I must face my father,
Alone,
None to support
While he asks his questions
Makes his insinuations
And implies, sigh, what a disappointment.
Except he won’t be like his mother, no.
He’ll never say I’m a failure,
Just indicate with all his words,
That’s what I am.

Poem 4:
That corner there looks good,
Looks the best
The one to hide in where no one can see me
Pull the covers over my head
To wait out the thunderstorm
Of voices and yells down stairs.
Change my face, so I’m no longer me.
And hide curled up where only my thoughts can hurt.

Poem 5:
She said I’ll meet you there
But then never came or said
And on Monday, she forgot to mention
So I let it slip,
And thought less of her.
She became less of a person to me.
Less of her.

Poem 6:
When I need to scream at the irony or the anger I hear at the dinner table
I imagine a pit, dark, dank, unending
And I scream into that.
I make believe it will hold my screams for me
When I have a chance to hate at the world.

Poem 7:
I lost one of my favorite gloves
I love those grey gloves
The ones that don’t have fingers
I wore them often
They had a bit of me in the palms.
But I can’t find the other one,
So I won’t wear them at all.
If I can’t have it whole, I won’t use it
If I can’t have it all, then why bother.
That’s what I said to you,
When you said I could share you,
And I was wearing those gloves,
Standing under the silver maple tree
Not holding your hand
In my grey gloves when they were together.

Poem 8:
I got a papercut on the receipt printed bill walking out of the dentists office.
I dropped my phone on my way to help a friend move.
I jammed my finger teaching my brother how to make an arc in basketball.
But I only remember the bad tidings when I’m already in that mood.

Poem 9:
Don’t turn cold, please
I don’t want to buy people presents
Or care
Carol or sing
I want to go to the mountains
Live in a shack with handmade quilts from little old ladies
And put milk in my tea,
To forget what day it is.

Poem 10:
He must be different
No on else is like him.
But he’s normal
Totally normal.
He told me he is.
To fit in,
With football buddies,
And loping walks
With other boys who look like their fathers.
I’ve never really liked anyone who thought they were normal.
But I have to love a brother,
My brother,
That normal one.

10 Poems in 20 Minutes (Day Ninety-Five)

Apologies for the late hour of posting. And a reminder that I’ll be writing ten poems in twenty minutes for five more days before reducing to a more casual poem writing rate.

I Wrote 10 Poems in 20 Minutes (2:05)
Day 95

Poem 1:
I didn’t talk to anyone yesterday
It came as a shock to speak today
I sounded funny
Odd and cold.
But nothing was worth saying.

Poem 2:
There won’t be great ballads written about people
They’ll be written for these ideal ideas of the thought and deed.
Without flaw they’ll stand up tall on pedestals of monument.
Carved without doubt, they won’t be true stories
Not anymore.
Not after we have to be perfect.
We don’t get to watch our heroes fall unconscionably
Make mistakes on purpose and suffer as human suffer
In big balls of misery, self-doubt, and love.

Poem 3:
I’d like to say I’ve seen it all
Can hear any story
With a nod and a continue on please.
But one slips through.
This time it was a woman
Who let herself get taken
And didn’t seem to mind
All boozed out the next morning
Casually chatting to the girl sitting in the bus seat next to hers
That she just hopes she can wash the puke out of the dress
It was her favorite.

Poem 4:
He expected me to cook
Make food
For the round pot belly
While Mom wasn’t home.
Just expected.
I wanted to push my barriers and boundaries
Scream at the heavens,
But I have no place to go.

Poem 5:
I can’t get myself to move
I say tomorrow
I will do this.
And instead I sit and cry
I can only do what I don’t mean to do
And it has to be drawn out on autopilot
Without the thoughts of my mind.

Poem 6:
I’ve forgotten how to have a friend
Because I haven’t seen one in so long
Without an agenda and a laundry receipt
Of all what I should do for her.
I forgot that someone can listen.

Poem 7:
I just won’t speak tomorrow
I’ll save myself all the worry.
Put my head down plow to get what must be done.
And finally break free later.
Find somewhere else to put my love.
This must get done.

Poem 8:
I don’t want to own these things
That I have to pay to move
I don’t really want
But I can’t afford to keep around
Or buy again new.
I’ll just carry around a watch
Like a monk
And even then I’ll borrow batteries.
But I’ll lose my favorite mug that has a hummingbird as the handle.

Poem 9:
I hit my head on the lip of the desk
Fulfilling a favor she asked of me
After I’d just woken up,
I said I’m too tired for this and stormed off.
Hit my head and hurt,
Still can’t control my own body
After all these years.

Poem 10:
Singing a song I know all the words to
Keeping time on my wheel
Street sounds as percussion
And pedals for long notes.
That makes me happy.
Singing as loud as I can
Where no one can hear me.
Knowing I sound good.

10 Poems in 20 Minutes (Day Ninety-Four)

I Wrote 10 Poems in 20 Minutes (10:51)
Day 94

Poem 1:
It was just us
Two people to eat dinner
I always thought the couple in the place
Who sat there staring at their food
It was their fault
Being so quiet.
Wrong, for not speaking,
Finding what to say.
We weren’t there because we liked each other
Just obliged by outside forces to eat as two.

Poem 2:
I don’t feel pretty
In those rare moments after
Too much makeup or too much made up wine
For a glimpse
I look beautiful.
I take that with me to go into tomorrow.
I use that nice feeling to get to tomorrow.
I turn it into part of the machine to keep going.

Poem 3:
I want him to like me
And rescue me
Say, of course,
I’ll buy you plane fair
No you’re not too young.
But I don’t want to break these dreams
These new dreams I have
Because I don’t often dream anymore
And these seem so nice.

Poem 4:
I’m still living in my parent’s house
Because I haven’t tried
And I can’t get myself to try.
I haven’t been able to stop
Look above the trees
Over the hedgemaze
To say, ah, that’s right,
I’m going over there.

Poem 5:
I found the dog that died’s tags
Little pieces of clinking metal
I’d thought I didn’t care
And that anything I felt past.
Here I am holding worn blue heart shaped
Years old tags
Crying.

Poem 6:
She always had to be better
That was fine with me.
But she never got the chance to know me.
To say, ah, this is she.
I will like her for these reasons.
Instead she called out, sister,
I loved you as a plaything when we were young
And I’ll treat you the same now.

Poem 7:
My hair picks up the dust around me
If I combed it all through
Holding the falling little bits
I would find the small pieces of me all around.
The fluff of the covers, a bit of nail polish,
A staple from important papers, flecks of paint,
And bits from my life.
My long hair holds bits of my story I’ve forgotten to tell
I can’t cut it off just yet.

Poem 8:
Mom accused us of not brushing our teeth at our Dad’s
We had to open our mouths for inspection.
She raved about our father,
Our ears switched from a minute ago
When all we heard were holding against a Mom.

Poem 9:
I won’t speak unless I know my ground.
Or have a source of information.
Unless I’m speaking to understand.
I don’t see how you can speculate
Without all the facts
And be wrong all the time.
I could never be wrong
Not in his presence.
He’d yell at us our ignorance.

Poem 10:
Celebrate the money
Nice suits, ties, dresses and fans.
When did being smart go away
As a negative.
Only the reserved question the idiots now
And only in their minds.
The money is held by the think I know bests
Friend’s of my mothers.
They don’t like being criticized.

10 Poems in 20 Minutes (Day Ninety-Three)

I Wrote 10 Poems in 20 Minutes (8:45)
Day 93

Poem 1:
I scuffed my feet along the carpet
Of my Grandparent’s house outside of Chicago
I had my Christmas socks on
Mom had already threatened to leave twice.
But I had just figured out how to make my thin hair stand
On edge
And shock someone else.
To the front door
All the way to the box color tv set.
Swish shss swissh.
I put my hand on my sister’s arm
And I smiled
And she glared.

Poem 2:
She stood in line with my sister
And told her she would only pay for a few meals
While the line could hear them
At the pay counter to the deli.
As soon as they sat down,
Food in baskets in hands,
She said, no I changed my mind
I’ll pay for all our food.
This was my vacation.

Poem 3:
She said, you could have said
I was expecting you to do this for me
Instead of getting mad.
I said you would have gotten mad either way.
She said, you can’t predict what I would say.
I said why don’t you make me a list of appropriate responses.
I look her right in the eyes.
And she got to be shocked
She could raise a child so mean.

Poem 4:
I dance to the song that plays
And sing along
As loud as I can
Because I know all the words
And the beats.
I get to dance without pressure
Because I can’t hear anything
But the song in my ears
Dancing all along.

Poem 5:
She tells him how to pack
What to take
Double checks to redundancy.
But when she’s gone
He wont’ be able to pack at all.

Poem 6:
I’ve been so cold
The unwashed stiff white flower quilt in the corner became a
Safe harbor from the heat that wasn’t turned on.
I curled around myself my arms kept my chest warm
My hands balled in fists
As I tried to sleep to make morning come faster.

Poem 7:
He would say to us
I’d like to buy that for you
But I can’t afford it.
This is why I save money
And try very hard
Not to spend it on coffees.

Poem 8:
The floor boards creak a certain way
When she’s about to knock on my door
And give me a two second warning
To put myself on guard
And put the other one,
The behaved me
Up in front and center ready.

Poem 9:
I’ve said the wrong thing again
I keep messing up
It’s all my fault
I can’t do this right without practice
And I’m too scared to practice.

Poem 10:
I’m so cold.
I’m so cold.
I’m so cold.
If I say it like a mantra
Maybe it will go away.
I’ll get so used to it,
That like spring shorts
I’ll be fine with skin in snow early in the year.

10 Poems in 20 Minutes (Day Ninety-Two)

I Wrote 10 Poems in 20 Minutes (11:20)
Day 92

Poem 1:
When greyhounds die
Some of them wail and cry
Whine with their last breath
The doctor said she wasn’t sure why
But warned us,
That even though our dog was sedated
She still might cry out.
I wanna die like that
Screaming at the world
One more time before I go.
To say I was here once,
Hear me now.

Poem 2:
She should have told me
Sat me down and said
This is how it works.
But my mother never sat down to explain
She was too busy running
Here or there.
But I would have liked to know,
If I’d asked her
She would have said,
Of course you know how that works
You should know how to do that by now.

Poem 3:
I’m so scared some moments only live In my head
Someone could lose them
My important moments
Someone should remember
A person who’s parents both don’t have dementia
Because my brain will go dark on the scans soon.

Poem 4:
I waited up till sunrise
Sitting on my kitchen countertop
Because I love winter sunrise on snow.
But it was a gray morning
And I couldn’t tell when the sun had come up
I’d waited for nothing.

Poem 5:
He said
If no one takes the blame
If it’s your fault.
You must step up and say so.
That’s the only piece of good advice he’s given me.
Just the one.

Poem 6:
She collected teacups
And only drank coffee.
She never left her husband
Because she deserved this life.
She had to have people around
And became a stay at home wife.
She only married
To answer her body’s need for kids.
And she’s going to die soon
Still funnier than I’ll ever be.

Poem 7:
She looks like she knows me
But that could be how a dog licks a burglar.
She can’t remember my name
But seems sure I belong.
So I’ll stay and tell her things I told her yesterday,
And she’ll listen.
She pats my hands when I say bye grandma.

Poem 8:
People haven’t stopped talking
Just because we hold black boxes in our hands.
Taciturn people stay quiet.
Shy people might not want to talk.
It might be rude,
But people don’t change being people
Because they can hold the world
In their phones.

Poem 9:
I lent them money
I did it instantly
When asked.
But it breaks my rule
And won’t turn out well
Never lend
Never borrow.
My instant social cues
To what they needed
Overrode my logic warnings.

Poem 10:
To make a person that has my eyes
Would fill me with pride
But I’m not sure I want to pass all my doubt
Down another generation.
No one deserves to think the thoughts I’ve thunk
Even if they only get my good parts.

10 Poems in 20 Minutes (Day Ninety-One)

Hello to you, my one reader. I have an announcement, a small one. I’ve decided when I’m going to stop writing ten poems in twenty minutes daily. I think I’ll make it to a hundred days in a row, just for the ring of the number. I think following that, I’ll just post the poems I’ve written that day. It could be one, it could be ten, but this way the pressure subsides, and allows for lack of time.

I Wrote 10 Poems in 20 Minutes (10:46)
Day 91

Poem 1:
You have to left me go
If I ask
You won’t ever hold me.
But maybe not,
Maybe I’m not an ethereal, graceful, floaty wisp of a thing
I’m possibly constant, true, solid and stuck.
I just never knew the right people.

Poem 2:
I slept but it didn’t feel as any time had past
One hour
I imagined a wily grin on a face of an old teacher.
Another moment
I ran from a sea monster on a boat.
And I opened my eyes again to find it noon.
My dreams were the only thing I did today.

Poem 3:
She encouraged me toward anarchy
I realized later
Just to test out her theories.
She said
Think of all you have to trust
When you’re driving down the road
All those strangers
And you have only just to hope
That they follow this set
Of rules.

Poem 4:
I nicked my finger with a butcher’s knife while cutting onions
My eyes held water.
And I felt myself get nauseous from the blood
I don’t get sick from the sight of red
I never have.
I kept telling myself that
While I lost my peripheral vision
Hey, you, body, this isn’t anything to be sad about.

Poem 5:
I met friends of a boy I knew
And I played dances with the fences in the eyes
And territory of the brown hair girl who clung to him.
But I disarmed her little, by doing what she didn’t expect
I saw the shock myself.
I ask her questions directly
Ignoring the boy, who I wanted to know.
So that I could go back to eating my food
Without a territory battle of words.

Poem 6:
I’ll run in the flat fields
With my never ending flat feet
Through the rows of harvested corn
Never run out of sunshine or land
Because it all goes in a straight line
I’ll go in a line
To say hello earth, this is what I sound like
When I live for now.

Poem 7:
I seem so small
Even my dog runs faster
And my pillows are wider
My table sturdier
I have no mountain in me.

Poem 8:
Our escape stack in piles
Leaf upon leaf
Shelf upon shelf
Floor to ceiling
Page to page
They hold you in there
Say, come and stay
And forget how the rest of your brain works
While you read.

Poem 9:
He never lived in my world
I thought he was there.
My sister and I spent the weekends and summers with our father.
Not my brother though, the half one.
I never thought how different my life could be
From a few days.
But those away from our mother
Held poverty, and cold, and pride and decorum
And a yelling man who didn’t know
What to do with two little girls.

Poem 10:
He asked,
Is this ok?
That new to use red brick square house
He implied, if we didn’t like it we could leave
As if we had a choice.
That was the first time I remember
I saw I had no power.